Next, my family.
Thanks for being my supporters no matter what.
You know, my whole family watched over me at my dream stage on 6/12.
In the moment when I saw my family’s faces from the trolley, various thoughts welled up and I got really emotional…
My mother took me to Saitama Super Arena, and when I got out of the car she gave all the members matching presents and letters.
“Read them after the Saitama Super Arena performance is over (^_^)” she told us.
It was the second letter from my mother in my life.
Even after the Saitama Super Arena performance was over, it was too precious and I couldn’t bring myself to open it, though I finally read it a while ago.
Man, it was really too much (/ _ ; ) lol
I learned what my mother had felt during these 15 years.
One sentence said,
“15 years ago your mother wondered why the shy, withdrawn Maimi became involved in this audition, and to me raised in the country I thought you had entered into a scary world. [?]
But now, 15 years later, I think,
Ah, this was the life Maimi needed to advance in.”
That’s what was written.
The real reason I thought, “I want to take the audition!” actually I haven’t told anyone!
I’ve really kept it to myself.
My mother will also think it’s strange.
But the reason I thought, “I’ll enter this world!” was because my mother was there.
When I joined Hello! Project, my family’s environment changed considerably.
We, who were in elementary school at the time had to be escorted by our parents, would have been allowed to quit the company that our mothers also served, [?]
and I think any parents would have given the same resolution. [?]
After dropping us off,
since they couldn’t waste time before they picked us up, I didn’t notice back then but now I understand that was also difficult…
Our parents naturally became friends,
and after we didn’t need them to take us and pick us up, it seems their opportunities to meet decreased,
but at the dinner show on our formation date, our parents apparently met and talked after a long time… ♡(*´-`)
It seems they told lots of nostalgic stories,
like “It was difficult at that time, wasn’t it (^_^)”
My mother told me that happily ♡
母を一人占めしてしまった事で、兄たちは口にはしないし、態度にも出さないけど
相当、寂しい気持ちを我慢していたと思う。 [?]
Even though I was so childish, she often put up with me without complaining once…
随分昔の話だけど、
「今日、野球の試合、見に来れんの？」って、気にして聞いてきた話しや、
たまに試合を見に行けた日には、嬉しそうにしてた！なんて話を母から聞いて、
本当は、もっともっと母との時間も過ごしたかったんだろうなー。と思いました。 [?]
I felt sorry for a long time,
but my brothers always cheered for me.
The Line messages that came from those same brothers before I stood on the last stage.
This is one of them:
「舞美自身の夢が、いつしか応援してくれる方達みんなの夢になり、自分のために努力しようという気持ちが、いつしか応援してくれる方達のために頑張ろうという気持ちに変わり…その頑張ってきた結果がこの15年です。
芸能界といえども仕事なので、数字や結果が求められていたこともあったと思います。でも、CDを何枚売り上げたとか、テレビにどれだけでたとか、そんな数字なんかより目の前に応援してくれる人が1人でもいるならその人のために！と5人とスタッフの方が積み重ねた15年の経験全てが最高に価値のあるものだったはずです。
長い間本当にお疲れ様でした！
ずっと誰かのために頑張ってきたのだと思います。なので、今日くらいは…今日のさいたまスーパーアリーナだけは、舞美自身のために思いっきり楽しんで下さい。きっと応援してくれる全ての方が、そんな姿を楽しみにしてるはずです。
その舞台に立つことを兄として誇りに思います。
最後まで舞美らしく、全力で美しく舞って来て下さい(￣^￣)ゞ」
That’s what was written.
I was happy…(>_<)
I also lived a life proud of my brothers! Without even making an unhappy face, unlike me, they did their own things by themselves…they were so independent, they seemed like very mature adults.
Thank you so much for putting your own selves aside
and supporting me first.
And, at the time when those brothers of mine were young,
I suppose my dad did everything after returning from work…
Even when I returned late at night, my dad always waited up for me.
Because he’s so kind, I carelessly got too spoiled,
but I’m sorry for making you listen to all my selfish wishes.
Somehow, my friends and the people around me said things like
“I really like Maimi’s papa~!” and
“Yaji’s papa is cute!” a lot,
so I think he’s really loved…
The path I had chosen stirred up my family, but they are such a strong, strong family that they weren’t fazed,
and I’m thankful from the bottom of my heart that I could do what I needed without any inconvenience in an easy environment.
This was also written in my mom’s letter.
“I received enough filial piety to last a lifetime, that’s what a fun and happy time I was able to spend. Thank you.”
Even though I had only caused trouble, I was so happy to read those words.
There were also so many things my mom wrote in her letter that only she would understand, and I thought again, because such an understanding person was there, I was able to do my best even in the painful times.
I’m happy I was born in the Yajima family.
Father, Mother, my brothers…thank you so much.
Staff-san.
When I first entered Hello! Project, I think everyone held up my head. [?]
Now, even if I reflect on it myself, we were in elementary school, had no manners, were noisy in the dressing rooms, and if they got angry at us we couldn’t understand. [?]
They had to have considerable physical and mental strength to raise us from scratch…
Once we became adults we could understand what we couldn’t when we were little,
we realized the true feelings of those who had scolded us,
during the 15 years we made various discoveries.
During the painful seasons, without throwing them away they became our power. [?]
The Staff-san that we’ve been in the care of forever,
at times when they casually said, “Take us with you to a big stage someday〜(^o^)”
I realized that we aren’t the only ones who have dreams!
That everyone, even the Staff-san, think the same things.
Even in the painful times, I thought, I want to show the Staff-san who have continued to believe in us the best scenery!
I thought, I want them to be able to brag about us: “The group I was responsible for did a live in a big place!”
Many of the Staff-san we were in the care of in the past also came to see our last concert, and I was really moved.
We were raised by a lot of hands,
and receiving so much love until the end made me happy ♡
I wonder if I was able to repay my debt a little? (T ^ T)
For all the people who went through hardships, I think I’ve got a long way to go yet m(._.)m
Most of the jobs of the staff members can’t be seen from the front, but without the staff we wouldn’t be able to do concerts;
there’s a surprising number of staff members that are involved in a single concert…
For our sakes, these people move around busily and sweat… I thought.
To the extent that they could be proud to be involved in the lives, we repayed our debt by doing the best lives. Certainly!
Thank you so much for supporting us for so long ♡
The tears of the Staff-san were beautiful ♡
A cake we received from our former manager-san ♡
This cake is deeper than it looks ♡(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)
My close friends.
You watched over me at the end too! ♡
You supported me since the time I took the audition.
The fact that I was taking the audition was kept secret, but I secretly only told my close friends.
I practiced with my friend who was good at singing on the way home from school.
“By the way, I remember when Maimi told me a new group was formed named ℃-ute and you became a member of it ♡ You told me during general learning class…♡”
She remembered that for me, even when I didn’t remember it!! lol
What I remember well is
when I first started activities, I was told a lot, “When I met Maimi normally at school you were the Maimi I knew, but when I saw you on TV or at concerts, you seemed so far away. It felt like you would go far away, and I was somehow lonely…”
These days, maybe they’ve gotten used to it,
I haven’t been told that kind of thing,
but at that time I thought, so that’s what they think when they watch me~. lol
Not only that, but they always ensured my safety! lol
Their occupations are different, but it’s fun being able to meet and listen to stories of various worlds that I didn’t know, and seeing my friends working hard like that made me also want to do my best and gave me strength. Thank you.
All the people involved.
In the last concert, despite being on a weekday, really a lot of people involved with it gathered (T ^ T)
Thinking of all the people who couldn’t come, it really, really was a lot of people…
Once again, I realized that we’ve had a lot of encounters and involvements in these 15 years.
We’ve received various jobs and have co-starred with various people,
and through those many jobs, for coming to know ℃-ute, I’m deeply grateful!!
For ℃-ute to continue for 12 years, all of your strength was very important.
In the future, some of the members will continue their activities.
I’ll be happy if you continue to give us your help.
For supporting and spreading ℃-ute until now,
I sincerely thank you very much.
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